As an atheist, Jennifer Fulwiler felt like she was living a lie:
“I acknowledged the truth that life was meaningless,” she tell us, “and
yet I kept acting as if my own life had meaning, as if all the hope and
love and joy I'd experienced was something real, something more than a
mirage produced by the chemicals in my brain.” Her outlook was rather
dismal: “if everything that we call heroism and glory, and all the
significance of all great human achievements, can be reduced to some
neurons firing in the human brain, then it's all destined to be
extinguished at death.” For her, life couldn’t possibly have meaning
because life was merely material and temporal. Nothing special.
At
the risk of throwing unholy water on Jennifer Fulwiler’s fervent
conversion story, I must object to this idea that life can be meaningful
only if it has spiritual and eternal significance. If life has such
everlasting significance, so much the better, but we needn’t get so far
as spirits, gods, and the heavens to find meaning in the human
condition. We can, for example, trace the emergence of meaningfulness
back to the human capacity for consciousness and narration. Even if
glory, hope, love, heroism, and joy are reducible to reacting chemicals
and firing neurons, they become meaningful in the context of our
consciousness of them and the stories we tell, retell, and remember. To quote Richard Kearney: “From the word go, stories were invented to fill
the gaping hole within us, to assuage our fear and dread, to try to
give answers to the great unanswerable questions of existence: Who are
we? Where do we come from? Are we animal, human or divine? Strangers,
gods or monsters?”
We discover what it means to be ourselves in
this grand endeavor of storytelling, of narrating who and what we are
and from where we came. Some of these stories we remember; others we
forget. Some we consider sacred; others profane. Some rise to the
heights of culture; others are lost in the sands of time. Regardless
of these contingencies, they are all meaningful. The story no one
remembers still had meaning when it was told and heard and remembered.
Similarly, if the human story ultimately comes to nothing, the story
will still have been meaningful for those who lived and shared it.
What gives life meaning? At the very least, we do.
(VN) H/T: Sullivan